Neruda

Reading Pablo Neruda's 100 Love Sonnets. Here's a line, that I enjoyed, of one of the many poems that I read tonight.

"I love you, on your lips I kiss happiness itself."

Bummed...

I miss my hubby terribly. I'm use to getting an email every other day and a phone call every 2-3 days. It's been a week and no email and no phone calls. "Keep cool Anonima. No tears. No tears." That's what I keep trying to tell myself. I've held back a few tears. Only a few trickle down my cheek, but no full on water works. Geez, this army wife business is hard SHIT!!

Late one night, when I couldn't sleep...

It's 3:20am and I can't sleep. This insomnia is killing me. I shouldn't be to surprised about it because it's been happening since hubby has been in Iraq. Anyway, the point for the post was not to talk about him. Been there, done that. Since it is an extremely late hour I decided to google my blog. I know you may be asking, "why the heck would you google your blog?" I did it for shits and giggles. So, I googled my blog and I got 1,210,000 hits matching "Sex, Love & Latina" Sadly, the first option was not my blog. I did however find a whole shit load of porn sites. I did find a link to my blog on page 5. I found it interesting and a little funny that the link ended up being something I wrote back in March of 2007 when I bumped into my now hubby at a club on my sister's 23rd birthday bash. Funny huh? Pero, anyway, it was pretty funny to see how many porn sites there were. A few them made me chuckle. Oh in the mist of all the porn sites I did see the link to my favorite magazine, Latina.com was numero 4 on the very first page and a random link some critical thinking about sex and love. Oh well, here are some of the titles:

My Love For Latinas
Latina Sex Sites Hot Latina Porn Reviews
Spicy Latina Pussy
Sexy Latina Latinas Putas Sex....
Latina sluts love big sex parties...
Latina Sex and Latina Porn

Let me stop here, because I'm starting to feel a little dirty, and not in the good way, when writing out some of those sites.

LIGHT BULD! *This is my attempt at an idea*

Maybe I should come up with a whole series of blog post with the above title, "Late one night, when I couldn't sleep..." (Said in a very thick Spanish accent) Pero that's not a bad idea meng. It's somethang to think about.

Thinking of Hubby

I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naïve or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.

--Anais Nin

I have mentioned this quote before, and I look at it now and think that I have found that man. I know it's cheesy to say that, but that's how I feel. I miss my hubby every day. I don't know how I am surviving with him being on the other side of the world. We've dealt with a long distance relationship since we started, but it is so different this time. (Deep sigh) I miss him.

A couple of days ago I was driving from work and my mind drifted to my past. How love and relationships played such a huge role in my life. I never imagined myself being married right now. I always had a feeling that I would be married with el amor de mi vida, but I didn't think that he was going to be the man that I knew when I was young. It is funny how life brings you back to the very beginning. He was my beginning. He was my beginning into the crazy world of love. And he ended up being my final stop in that crazy journey. I'm happier then I would have ever imagined. I'm taking it one day at a time and I can't wait until he comes back home to me.

New Look!

Bueno amigos y amigas, I have been sitting on my couch for the last 2 hours browsing online for blogger templates and giving me blog a new look. I can safely say that I like the new look and feel of my blog. I have been trying to revamp it for quiet some time, but I haven't been able to figure it out, until now. I did lose my favorite blog posts, the blogs I like to read, along with my favorite links, pero no worries meng, lol. I managed to find some but not all my my favorite reads and some of links. I can always work on my favorite blog posts later down the road.

So the point of the revamp of the blog is to revamp the blog. I need to dedicate myself on doing what I love to do, which is write and share. Just cause I got married doesn't mean I gotta stop blogging, :o) I know that someday I'll stop writing all together, but I'm not ready to give up on this blog thing. I can still write about love and sex,though the sex part isn't happening anytime soon until Hubby comes back from Iraq, but I'm sure I'll have plenty of masturbation stories to share ;o) Oh and I can't forget the Latina side. That's just me being me. The essence of me, lol.

The In-Laws

Distance does make the heart grow fonder. I miss my hubby more than what I did when he was just stationed in Kentucky. Isn't that crazy?! I think that because we are not in constant communication it makes me miss him more. Last time I heard from him was on Thursday. We only got to talk for a few minutes but it was so great to hear his voice. I pray everyday that he comes back home safe and sound.

Moving on from the mushy stuff...

I have a bit of a dilemma. Well it's really not a dilemma. It's not that HUGE of and issue for it be a dilemma...yet! So, I promised my hubby that while he was a way I would make more of an effort to spend more time with his sister and mother. According to the in-laws I only come around when he is home. Which I can see their point, PERO, yes there is a but, they don't make much of an effort to see or even call me. When he is back in Kentucky I call his mom every once in awhile and since he has been away overseas, I've called more and even have hung out with her and his sister. (Here is where the but comes in) BUT they don't call or come and see me. It's a two way street as one of my favs on work said today. I call them any time I get a phone call or an email from hubby, but do they call me if he calls or emails. I don't think so. I like to make the point that I even call her to see how she is, not just to talk about her son. Just on Thursday when he called me he said he was going to call his mom. Now she doesn't or didn't know that he had called me at all. Did she call me and tell me that he had called her and left her voice mail message saying that he was ok? Nope. I heard it because I went over to see her and my sister in law yesterday to pick up some papers. Yeah I know, he called me first I shouldn't care if they called me or not. But I do care, cause what if he didn't call me? What if he called his momma only? Would she have ever told me that he called if I didn't drop by? I always make a point to tell her when he called and I mentioned that he called me on Thrusday before she even mentioned anything to me. Urgh! Its just frustrating. I hate to complain, but I know that is what I am doing right now. I needed to vent and that's what the blog is for. To vent and express those feelings and emotions. And maybe along the way I can get some much needed advice on how to deal with my in-laws.

Married Lady

It's been a minute...a long ass minute. My apologies to anyone who still reads my blog. If no one does it's ok. I still like to post and express myself :o)

Bueno, since the last time I posted I GOT MARRIED. I'm a married lady now. I'm a wife! Oh, I'm still getting use to the idea of having a husband and being someones wife. My pre-wedding as a like to call was great. It was very intimate. Just my family and his family at city hall. Like I said before we are going to have a big bash when he comes back from Iraq. Well that's the plan anyway. A part of me feels like we may not have because we had the ceremony at city hall, but my hubby reassures me that it is going happen. He said to me that he wants to see me in that white dress. Ah, I love that man. He always knows what to say.

Currently my hubby is somewhere in Kuwait and then he'll be in Iraq. I miss him like crazy and I worry about him all the time. I have had a few breakdowns since he has been away. I shouldn't cry alone, but I don't want my family to know that I'm sad. I'm trying to be strong, so I'm keeping myself busy. I miss him a lot. I miss him A LOT! But I'm going to take it one day at time.

Pre-Wedding

My pre-wedding day is vastly approaching. Now, I know the question is burning thru your mind, "what do you mean by pre-wedding?" I mean pre-wedding, because Future Hubby and I are going to city hall to get hitched. It's not what I wanted, but since he is going off to Iraq in June, there wasn't much time or money to plan the wedding the wanted. You know that white dress, getting married in a church and celebrating the joyous event with friends and family. Trust me, not having that sort of wedding was the hardest decision I have had to made. But I'm not worried. Future Hubby will come back in a year and we'll get to have the church ceremony then. I have a whole year to plan it :o) And like my dad told me, "getting married in city hall, will not take away from a church ceremony. You have to get married in church and through the government." I'm excited!! Future Hubby will be home in exactly 20 days and the minute he lands home, we'll go to city hall to get our marriage license and then plan to get married a few days later. I can't wait to marry him.

I'm going to be a wife, lol!